oh wait.. we're supposed to be the mature ones..

I honestly feel like the issue isn’t being handled in the way that it should be. It’s clear that there are some problems present within our group and the fact that no one aside from me and Ashley are addressing is stupid. My group obviously feels like we are being pushed aside and ignored, whether or not that was the intention doesn’t matter because the fact remains that we are not happy. Yes our idea was undeveloped and yes we didn’t exactly know how to explain it and given some time we would've gladly come up with something to show but our ideas were shot down and it can be said that they weren't shot down a thousand times over but that still wont make it true. I would've been fine just listening to everything but as I looked around I watched some of the others completely disregarded and disrespect the conversation we were having, they were talking, they were on the computer looking at dresses, they were texting.....aren’t we supposed to set an example for the other grades?  Aren’t we supposed to be the mature ones? I'm not trying to make the other groups bad or wrong they are just as entitled to their opinion as anyone else is and it's just as much their project as it is mine.... but you know its a problem when someone as strong as Ashley to start crying. After I left I called her to make sure she was okay, I listened to the pain in her voice and I was awestruck by the fact that she had been pushed this far. She also explained how one of the other seniors  came up to her later on and said that her ideas were of no benefit to the group. I'm all for trying to make this project  something  amazing... but there are some major obstacles we're gonna need to get over first.

Life is.... strange

I've begun to notice that the world works in very mysterious ways.  Like I've shared several times in class what I want to do as a career is become a chorus teacher my family happens to have a different view. they want me to become a scientist. Why a scientist? i have absolutely no idea but their hearts are set on it.  I lik the sciences but not enough to spend the rest of my life with them. I love music so much and it's gotten to the point where I've been pushed to tears by the screaming my father and I have done, I'm surprised Caitlin hasn't heard it from down the block. I love my father very very much but its really difficult to remain calm when your dreams are being shattered like sugar glass in a Michael Bay film. he says that he doesnt want me to get out of college and not be able to find a job and i understand that... but isnt that something i should face on my own. One of the parts of the STAC code is Bold Optimism... how can someone have bold optimism without risks?

Long time no post..

So I havent posted in a while and I have no excuse, but i'm  going to change that.
Since my last post  alot of different things have happened in STAC. We went to the city, we've been working on dada projects in art and in our own chosen discipline, and in general we've been having fun.
The trip: The trip was so much fun! It was wet and rainy but aside from that I enjoyed it. I think that my favorite parts of the trip were sculpture center and the show. Sculpture center(mainly the first floor) was so interesting, I happen to really like the work that Sanford Biggers put up. The concept of the whole project is really cool too, following slave trade in its reverse order from Portugal to Brasil to Western Africa, I really want to see the other videos that go along with the "Cosmic Voodoo Circus"  the first one is being shown at the Brooklyn Museum of art so maybe i'll go see it  when I get a chance. That show was also really good! It was so funny and the fact that we were so close to the actors themselves made me feel like I was a part of the show. I went to the libaray and took out a book of plays by Eugene O'Neil and i started laughing when I saw all the stage directions in it.
DADA: I'm really excited for the dada expostion, I'm a little nervous though because to me what we're doing doesnt make much sense. I guess I have to wait until it's all put together and then it'll make more sense but for now its just a whole bunch of sounds that dont really go together, but i'm sure it'll be better when its all together.

Elaboration

Okay... so why don't I like STAR TREK? Here's why: I feel that the fact that they used aliens and spaceships to send out a pro gay message  trivializes it to a point where it doesn't matter anymore. Another thing that makes me dislike it  is that the entire premise of the show is stupid to me, granted I still watch cartoons, but I just don't find it at all entertaining.

STAC 2012

I'm really excited for this year! Last year one of my big HUGE problems was my lack of discipline but this year i'm ready to get shit done! I did some growing up over this summer  and I feel like I'm in a much better position to work now that I've actually gotten things done.

So today in STAC we began the year with!......STAR TREK.. I really didn't like it much, the entire idea of the episode was great and so was the acting but the fact that they did it with aliens and gave it such a crappy ending really really irked me.  If Sorrin really loved Commander Riker then she would've gone with him and  they would've been happy together but i still feel like it was a complete and total cop out. Also when Luke said that someone had the idea that a man play Sorrin, I agree, it would've been a much stronger message that way. I believe that people should be able to be with whoever they want in order to live a life that is, in their eyes, happy and fulfilled.
I miss the prisoner so much though! I'd much rather watch that again from the beginning then watch Star trek again. The Prisoner was intelligently directed and wonderfully acted. Every episode was mindbomb after mindbomb and there were times where it got headaches from thinking too much but it was worth it because everything else about the show was so good! I think that we should have a day where we just finish the show for old times sake and I know that others that would agree with me.

But all thoughts on Star Trek aside i feel like this year is going to be very eye opening and fun. I cant wait to meet all the newbies and i'm sure we'll be great friends. Here's to a great year! :)

Final Jim Bonney Workshop and what I've taken out of them

I didnt know today was the last workshop with Mr. Bonney. Im honestly very upset about that.   Working with him has made me realize a lot of things  not only in acting but in my own life. I feel that after  being in his class I see the world in a different way.  Since getting into STAC  many things have impacted me on an emotional level: Swan Lake, Meisner training, The Empty Space, but none of these are quite like working with Mr. Bonney. I feel like a baby seeing the world for the first time  If I hadn't gone to these classes two things probably would've happened. 1. I'd probably be an emotional wreck right now. I had gotten so used to keeping my emotions holed up inside me and these classes gave me a chance to release all the emotions that I'd hidden. The first few classes I walked back up to the school crying and  afterwards I had never felt so good in my whole life! The way Jim Bonney works is amazing. I dont know how he does it but he can he me to feel things that no one else can and I really admire that but it also scares me. 2. My preformance in Urinetown would have been terrible! 

               I really had no idea how to play Barrel until the  the day of the first show. I cut it super close but in my opinion I did it  pretty well albeit with a hitch or two but in the end pretty well done.  Barrel turned out to be a ruthless 6 year old in a mans body who falls in love with Officer Lockstock. Thats a pretty big difference from him being "Shrek" like I had intentionally planned. I got laughs and I  was even recognized in school, people came up to me and said that I was their favorite character. I felt very confident about how I played Barrel, I knew what to do and how to do it well. I dont think I felt this confident with any of my other characters. I feel like I've come a long way from freshman year, I'm not the nervous kid playing Andrew Stein's dad anymore.
             
                      What I liked was that I eventually gave Barrel a personality that made him stand out from everyone else. I got my lines right, I held up the basses in the songs and I did what I could to make the show better. What I didnt like was that  a few times in each show I got carried away and it took away from what was happening in that scene. I tried so hard to make myself seen that I forgot it's not the Jon Ghandforoush show. I had sooooo much fun but I messed with the others, I know I shouldn't  have  but I'm glad I took the risk so I could figure out what was good and what was too much.  I took a risk and benifited from it, all in all Iwas happy with what I and the feedback I got.

              Working with Mr. Bonney was very fun I'm really going to miss the workshops, anyone that gets that chance is lucky because you really begin to find yourself during these classes. I want to start taking acting lessons with him. I feel that if I work with him I can get really really good.

               

workshop #5

Today we got all of the interviewing done and I believe that it is being edited. Today we expaned the final project and it's coming out really really well. Miming is alot of fun and I'm gonna miss it when its over. At least I can say I know how to mime. This whole experience was very different but very very fun